My current other half

I am 15 already. 
In 23 days, I'll turn 16.
That means i'm still on my halfway through 30.
And many things i've been experience in my 15 years of life.

"I have to get rid of this thing, but this thing's always appears everyday." 

well...

Being mysterious doesn't mean to seduce you to come closer. No one can't define my future (except god that i always trust). Just like all of sudden, this thing is always appears whenever my heart need it. what is telepathy, wtf is mind reading, this thing can't be compare with any superpowers. It comes whenever my heart need a companion.

I do believe everything has it owns fate (p.s. coz i don't believe in hoki stuff). But this thing is always pop out of nowhere. It makes me want to stick with it forever. I want it. I need it. Nobody else should have it, except me. You may call me greedy but that's what i really want to do. why? just because.

 I don't wanna swim into a deeper sea alone. At least, this thing can cheer me up without itself knowing.